Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Just One of Those Days

I declare today as official blah day. A day where in one moment life can seem mundane yet within a millisecond it can become overwhelming. It can be a day where the boring routine of the day just makes you want to beat your head against the wall or it could even bring you comforting excitement of knowing exactly what is going to happen at any given time.

For me, today feels never ending. I am stuck so deep in a rut that I have no clue on how to go about getting out of it. I am beyond sensitive about my life that it makes the hairs on the back of my neck resemble spikes when a family member attempts to offer me their opinion on the issues at hand. And the worst thing about this day? Is that I feel so utterly alone. I am usually good with feeling alone but today, it feels isolated. It feels that no one understands and that I am in short a head case. I think that I am a good communicator, but I don't know how to go about and express what I am feeling. And, in any attempt that I have made, the end result makes me feel like I have failed for I always end up frustrated, selfish and apologizing for not effectively conveying what it is that is bothering me.

But, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and all it takes to turn my day around (or at least stop me from mulling it over for a short term) is a look from one of my children. THANK GOD I have these two because they are my constant source of happiness, inspiration, pride and hope.


Jenn said...


It's nice to know we all have days like that.

The sun will come out tomorrow.


Goofball said...

you are not alone though as I am almost always on the other side of the internet or telephone ;)

Big hug!