Adios

At 2:00 PM MST today, this chickie is officially on her first vacation without children in 4 years!! There will be conflicting emotions in a couple of hours. I am sure that I will have to exert tremendous will power to ensure that my lead foot doesn't mow anyone down while it puts the pedal to the metal to get out of town. Yet, I will have to also consciously ensure that my hands aren't spinning the steering wheel around a full 360 degrees steering me back into our driveway.

Since becoming a Mommy, I have never been away from my children; like ever. And while I am very excited for this little break, I am also struggling with leaving the kids. When thinking that I am leaving them for five days in a couple of hours, my eyes well up in tears. What am I going to do with myself? How am I going to sleep at night not being able to hear them and get up randomly throughout the night to check on them? How are the kids going to survive without me? I know that is tremendously arrogant sounding but still, that it the thought process. I know that the kids will be fine as they will be cared for by Daddy and my Aunt. I also know that they will forget about me for the short term once they are doted on and kept busy.

Yet when I talk with my sister about the fun that we are going to have for the next five days, I get excitement in my stomach. We are going to be curling for the next five to seven days. I will be surrounded by family, friends and awesome fellowship in a non stop happy party like atmosphere. I know that I deserve a break and I know that I will enjoy myself.

But knowing all of this doesn't make it easy to leave home without my children. It will be done though for the sake of Mommy's sanity and I will come back to my babies refreshed and ready to take on their antics and let them experience new adventures.

So my friends, blogging will be sparse for the next five days while this Mommy kicks back and relaxes with adult stimulated conversation and lots of laughs.