Keeping Our Heads Above the Water

Wow - thank you all for the tremendous words of support. I have to admit when I went back and read my plea ... erm ... I mean rant, I can certainly say that I was wallowing deep in self pity.

We are hanging in there. Kaelen is doing better physically and now we are just dealing with the emotional impact of his limitations. Last night at 2:00 in the morning, he was crying and kept apologizing for falling down the stairs and hurting himself. He would then go on to beg to have his cast taken off for he just wants to run and play hockey. At one point, he even convinced himself that he would never get to play hockey again. It is hard to reason with a three year old when they work themselves up into a tizzy that is slightly laced with pain; especially at 3:00 am. For a little guy who never took a moment to sit down, this is certainly going to be a huge adjustment for him. Thankfully he is young and therefore should heal faster; or at least that is what the doctors have assured us of. While we adjust to our new lifestyle, the only thing that I can continue to do is love him, help him manage his pain (by weaning him off the drugs) and try to keep him distracted enough by learning games or something. This is one of those times that I kind of regret boasting about a child who hates TV ........

Throughout Kaelen's struggles we still have Masyn who definitely has her nose out of joint. These past three days we have been treated to some pretty spectacular temper tantrums and at the fine age of 11 months (tomorrow), she has the art of kicking and flailing in unhappiness down to perfection. We have affectionately labelled her PBC for Perfect Birth Control as each day, her diva attitude comes out even more. I love her, but holy moly has she become a high maintenance child. Unless she has my undivided attention, she is not a happy child. I am sure that it won't be long before there is a hole in the wall from either her foot or her bouncing the crib into the wall in her unhappiness. Hopefully, she will realize that her tantrums are for nothing as I am just as happy to keep her in that crib while she is in fine form. Now only if I could sound proof the room .....

Anyways, I should run for Kaelen is demanding my time. Oh ... and before I forget, I love the suggestion of the pull ups Sheryl - I offered this option to Kaelen (actually diapers as I wouldn't have to pull anything up and around the cast) and he was so hilariously offended and pissed at me that we almost went out and bought some. Luckily, now that his pain management is getting better, the issue of getting him on the potty isn't as much. He is still offended that he has to use "the little training potty" rather than the big person toilet, but we need the "dewy shield" made for boys to help with the pee parade that ensues once he gets started.

Thank you again for all of your thoughts, prayers and support. You are all a true blessing to me!