Kaelen was so much fun!

This Christmas was so much fun for us because of Kaelen. At first he was interested in opening presents but that lost his attention shortly after the stockings. He was then more attuned to chasing the cat who was in her glory with all of the wrapping paper scattered everywhere on the floor.

We all got spoiled rotten especially Kaelen. He got a lot of really thoughtful and cool gifts this year. One present that comes to mind is "Shout" Elmo. When you press Elmo's foot, he starts singing and dancing. Kaelen gets all excited and then grabs and hugs Elmo. It is very cute. Although the pictures don't show him hugging Elmo, you will get an idea of how much Kaelen like to play with him!

Yay! Santa Came!

We must have been very good this year as this was the sight that greeted us first thing this morning; a tree surrounded in presents and stockings full of prizes!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!

Excited for Santa

Although it looks like Santa already came, it was in fact Grandma who arrived this afternoon with a car full of presents. Kaelen has already learned the fine technique of being subtle when checking out what is under the tree.

From Our Family to Yours.......

Merry Christmas and all of the best in 2006, from our family to yours.....

Life Can Be So Unfair

Sigh.....one of these days, there will be some excitement to post rather than complaints. There are days that I just can't help but wonder what I did in my previous life to deserve such setbacks in this life. I know that is a selfish way to look at things, but I am in that bitter, selfish, "why me" stage right now.

We have lost yet another pregnancy. Back in August, it was one of those naive thoughts that went through your head thinking, "I honestly didn't think that would ever happen to me". After all, we had no problems conceiving, but apparently our problems are going to be carrying a baby to fruition.

On Sunday afternoon, I underwent laparoscopy surgery as well as a D&C for a possible ectopic pregnancy. Tests were showing that I had one which would explain the pain and bleeding that I had been experiencing over the previous week. Needless to say, it was a very emotional time for Paul and I, and one where I just wanted to scream at the world asking "why". Why us again? Did you not think that it didn't hurt us the first time in August that we needed to go through this pain yet again?

So as I sit here at home this week, trying to recover both physically and emotionally, I can't help but be bitter. How can you keep your spirits up like everyone tells you to do so? I know that everyone means it with good intentions, but it doesn't take away the hurt, the pain of another lost dream and the constant ache in your heart. You get to the point where you become resentful because you think that no one understands how you feel, but it is times like this venting, that you will touch someone's heart enough that they will share with you, their heartbreak of a similar incident. It is at those times, that you then truly realize that you are not alone, and then you can forge a bond out of hurt that becomes your dependency line as long as you need it.

Life truly sucks some days doesn't it?